Typical of me ….

I was like a flower bud, reluctant to open up
Waiting for a drop of love, for my splendor to show up
I saw in you things you showed to me
Unaware of the darkness inside, that would creep in
I gave you my hand to hold me tight
All you did was to twist it hard, at every fight
I thought you adored my tenderness
Used your charms to fool around with my weakness
I would have different hair styles to cover my swollen head
Apply different makeups to hide bruises on my face
Calling it an accident to people who gazed
As suddenly making love turned into rapes
With falling tears I crawled to the darkest place
Crying my soul out with shaking legs
All I could see with closed eyes is color red
No more could I be, comfortable in my skin
For I knew it was never love but sin
Was afraid to show my vulnerable side to people outside
Filling myself with hollows
As my bleeding veins carried tales of pain
One day
Through the broken cracks of a mirror
There was a women who stared at me
Looking into my eyes, she said
Do you have any reasons to say?
If not, then run away
Leaving everything behind, I ran to a place far away
Trimmed my hair short as there was nothing to hide
Drowned myself naked in a warm river tide
Occasionally having nightmares of him touching me
Ignored them as bad dreams
As each day, world outside welcomed me
And I turned inside to heal me
Taking small steps patiently in hope to break free
I realized, all the strength was hidden inside of me
Blinded by my own fears and burden of insecurities
I couldn’t adore beauty within me
As I no more need anyone’s acceptance
I have patience to deal with my own nonsense
For I will show only my strengths to bad intentions
And quietly meditate to heal myself

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