Messed up beauty…

Embracing her deceased feelings
She watched the sun go down
With every descend,
Sky would lit up
With shades of yellow and brown
She felt part of her, cracking
Like someone stepped over a dry leaf
Betraying herself, inch by inch
They say
Beauty of a rose is,
It has thorns to protect its rosy petals
What if? Those petals were covered with thorns all over
Would it be beautiful then?
She was that kind of beauty
Covered with spikes all over her spine
Battling it out every day without a whine
Waiting for someone equally wrecked
Someone hollow from within
Messed up like she was
Ready to go through pain of loving her
But
Out of all the misery, she still hoped
To be loved
For she knew,
It was the only thing that could set her free

We tried our best…

I want you and you want me
Isn’t that a bit greedy
Let’s have a toast for the troubles we faced together
Though, Not a winning streak
So let me write a “we tried our best” speech
I know we both aimed, for happily ever after
Turned out to be, happily never after ….
But
I’ll add an extra point for the efforts …
Too busy looking forward with our chins up
Of what’s ahead of us,
“The Magnificent Future”
Shit !!!
We completely missed our present….
If we could just….I mean just had a look of who’s beside us
We could have found each-other once again
Well !!!
We didn’t, sooooo no one to blame …..
But you…
Uppppsss sorry !! I don’t know… why I did…..I shouldn’t have….. ahhh … no one to blame
NO ONE ………TO BLAMEEEEE …..hmm
We were two blindfolded ambitious human beings
Caught up in middle of hustle and bustle of shitty life
Ohhh sorry, city life
We tried, I know we did …giving our 100%
Although the ratio was 30:70
But who’s counting, right?
It adds up to the total of 100% that’s more important
Sometimes I was hard on you and sometimes you were
Mostly you were …….
But we had our moments, beautiful ones
I wish they were part of my memories but they are not…
I only re-collect our fights and words we used….
And they were ground-breaking, top notch ….high quality….trust me ….
Breaking our self-respect, self-esteem and self this and that …
We loved our ego, I can bet on that
But on the serious note (just to make you feel better ……)
You have something beautiful in you, embrace it
I am glad you didn’t let it go, for me
We have our flaws and imperfections, let’s work on it …
I am sure you will find the one …
I hope the same for me …
And if,
In the middle we meet
Let’s not frown but greet
We tried our best, isn’t it?

To him & To her…

To him
The most important thing in this world was her smile
Assured him that everything is alright …..
Sometimes when you know a person day in and day out
You tend to ignore small things
She carried her smile beautifully
But was awful in dragging her sad heart…
He gazed at her but didn’t look deep enough
To find a girl
Shaking with fear and tangled in confusing thoughts
She was in need of comfort,
A touch or a word that switches off the hurricane inside her
To her
He was the power source
One that builds up the energy to move ahead..
Lights up your life….
Reason you smile without a reason …..
He was her first and last thought of the day…
To her, he was the one …….. Was he?
Unanswered doubts eat up your soul………..
She just wanted him to put it to rest
They were building a house together in which
Interior was beautiful but foundation was weak
And as they were about to finish..
He wanted to live and she wanted to leave

Give it to me….

Give me things u don’t need
I’ll embrace it, as a world to me
Let me bring back that smile
Let me clear those clouds blocking light
Give it to me and I’ll find a meaning in it
Let me open the windows of your soul
Break through the cracked glass door
Your heart will bleed for a while, I know
Enough of pampering it with sorrow
Take a sip of bitter wine, called hope
Let it sink and give you the highs of it
I know that sinking feeling, it hurts for a while until you fall in love with it
Sadness is sweet and give you peace
Dig a hole and then you dive deep
Drowning yourself in meadows of dark
Loosing yourself in shadows of past
I’ll shake you
I’ll wake you
Give me everything that hurts u
I’ll fill that emptiness with what it needs to
I’ll mold it into something magical
And when you look back
It shall remind, all that you have been through
And the reason why…
You are beautiful