Her ways….

She had beauty
Of an incomplete sculpture
Wicked for those with small minds
Goddess for one’s, who were kind

Nobody told her, to be brave
There was no hint, how to behave
She was blunt in a truthful way
Free like a bird,
In arms of blowing wind
She felt safe

Her thoughts would swing
like her fragile mood
Mostly loving, but sometimes rude
She would gift her heart, to those without intentions
Not needing one, she got all the affections

Yet her eyes would search of someone special
Special in a way, demanding no change
Accepting her, with no deceptions
She wasn’t judgmental
And never knew, how to be one

She would cry,
cry so beautifully
Letting her tears dance
On her rhythmic weep
As her sharp eyelid
Would bow down gracefully
Like a musician
At the end of symphony

 

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A Wait – That made time give-up…..

Many seasons passed by
Sun and moon had
Risen and fallen a thousand times
She knew, she was waiting
Waiting for all the wrong reasons

Every day, as sun readies itself to set
She would stroll on a dusty road
Surrounded by meadows over grown
Wearing a Black gown sliding on the ground
Flying gently like a dry leaf in the air
Creating rhythmic waves
She would walk barefoot,
A black thread tied on her right leg
Her foot trails, beautiful
Like a pathway to her soul

She would stop on the same spot, every single day
Spot, where once promises were made
Closing her eyes, taking deep breath
She would time travel
Feel the same feelings again
Touch of his lips on her forehead
Sound of his voice, whispering promises
Goosebumps on her body, gracing like tidal waves
It would lit-up candle of hope
Only time, her wandering mind
Would find peace and remain at ease

Over the time, she had many followers
On-looker thought, she had lost it all
Some would say, that’s what true love is
Some would sympathize
As her waiting was never ending

One fine day, a lady couldn’t stop herself from asking
Why do you wait, every single day since ages?
Isn’t it painful?
She replied, “What would you do?
When your mind is ready to move on
But your soul is already married to someone you love?
It doesn’t matter, how broken your heart is
If you still believe in beauty of it
It means your love is true
And that’s all that matters

 

A fainted pain

A fainted pain, said hello
Said, I remember you
from long ago
How’s your scars?
Have they healed?
Do you live
In the wrecked house you built
Painting it red, with your guilt

I see, you still have
that broken mirror
Does it remind you, of someone
Or makes you feel better
There is something broken too
than yourself, my dear

I see a hollow, still remains
On your windowpane
Whistling sound of fear
blown by wind in the rain

How does it feel, to be blamed
By the inner demons you tamed
For feelings that were chained
So I guess, it’s the same
You still out of your game
A fainted pain, said hello

He said She said III……

She: When do you know, you like someone?

He: Do you mean love someone?

She: Yes but first it starts with liking, right?

He: No, Don’t we like everyone around us? Imagine if we didn’t, it would be a mess

She: Ok Ok, When do you know, you love someone?
He: (when you hold my hand!! but I can’t tell her that)……. It’s about how you feel, when you are with that person…

She : Feelings !! What kind?

He: A feeling that makes you forget all your problems, insecurities, distrust feelings, fear of future … all that kinda stuffs…Negative Negative kinds

She: But there are many close ones who make me feel that way

He: soooo that means you love them all … 😀

She: No No … I mean not like that…I mean someone who is perfect for me …a guy whom I can be with my entire life …. A happy loving life

He : ohh !! A Guy (Shit!! Now I need to know where I stand) It’s the same feelings but with a twist …

She : Twist ?

He : Always go for A loving life and not a happy loving life ? 1st. don’t base your happiness on others, I know it’s difficult but sooner you learn better for you 2nd. You can’t control him and certainly he can’t control you. It’s like an awesome magnetic attraction but with a bit of space and less attachment..

She: You are not helping!!!!

He : ( It’s me !!! dam it ) OK Ok I will break it down for you
Someone who manages to give you enough confidence that in spite of all your problems, insecurities, failures, distrust feelings, fear of future which will always be there – he will stand by you
Not necessarily will always solve your problems coz that’s your shit and you need to deal with it…. but you know that he will be with you shoulder to shoulder through thick and thin … no matter how bad his situation is …

She: but

He: ( Ohh I hate that BUT )

She: There are many guy friends who are close to me and I know they will stand by my side

He: (That is probably coz ……… they have all fallen for you…..Shit !!! competition competition !!!! ) Hmmm , out of those guys whom do you want to be by your side the most ? Someone you pour your heart out and feel empty …..Someone who can console and be straight-up at the same time …..
Someone who respects and reminds you of who you are …..

She: hmmm

He: (And someone who takes time to answer all kind of shitty questions and still suggest someone else but not him)….😊😊

My kind of love….

I don’t want paper love
Coupled with staples
Easy to pluck with something edgy
Then what?

We are shattered
And our scars scattered
All over, like water on a slippery floor
As we re-visit our
Self-destructive mode

I want to melt like a metal
Dissolve in you
With an inseparable knot
It doesn’t come easy, isn’t it?

It’s painful and discomforting
With wounds all over us
Eternal marks that will sting our egos
No matter how rusty and messy it is
It will at least put an end
To our fickle emotions

As we lock our love in a shell
And drown it deep within our souls

You and Me …..

I’ll stick with you and let the world move on
As you hold me tight in all my meltdowns
I know you do, what it takes
To crack pass through my walls
Push me, to get my act straight
As my head busts with fleeting moments of despair
Mostly stuck in an elevated space
Trying not to look down and land on my face
It’s seems all these years, I have been playing it safe
Nurturing demons feeding on my strains
So wrap your arms around me like you always do
Cover me up when I am feeling blue
Whisper in my ears, tales of love that’s true
Let those words sink inside of me
Let them wander inch by inch
Hunting fears that reside in me
Consoling my restless soul
Reminding my heart to be free
Be by my side on this journey
For I don’t know, where life may lead
Take me away from this scene
To live life
Where it’s just
You and me

Messed up beauty…

Embracing her deceased feelings
She watched the sun go down
With every descend,
Sky would lit up
With shades of yellow and brown
She felt part of her, cracking
Like someone stepped over a dry leaf
Betraying herself, inch by inch
They say
Beauty of a rose is,
It has thorns to protect its rosy petals
What if? Those petals were covered with thorns all over
Would it be beautiful then?
She was that kind of beauty
Covered with spikes all over her spine
Battling it out every day without a whine
Waiting for someone equally wrecked
Someone hollow from within
Messed up like she was
Ready to go through pain of loving her
But
Out of all the misery, she still hoped
To be loved
For she knew,
It was the only thing that could set her free